my girlfriend

My girlfriend

Every day I have a fight with my girlfriend...each and everyday we

fight...each and everyday, sometimes even twice a day, most of these

fights end up with me apologizing for no reason other than that I want

to finish the fight more than she does. The reasons vary, but mostly

its about me not being the way she wants exactly, or my relationship

with my project mates.

Let me tell you a bit about our last fight, I woke up but I was really

sleepy, I felt like sending her a SMS, being way too tiered I used a

template of mine which I just added an additional line to, minutes

later she phones, who were you sending this message to, I'm sure you

were sending it to some girl of yours, I'm sure its not addressed to

me...it was for you, no you are a liar this message is not for me, so

she asks me to prove it, how the hell can I prove that I'm sending

this message to her. Later on the same day, I'm in my car driving

home, she phones where are you, I'm in my car going home, no you

aren't in your car, you are in Yasmine's (a friend of mine)

car...prove that you are in your car, blow the horn, of course I

refuse as I feel that its way too insulting for me to do it, I get

home and she tells me that she is sure I was in yasmine's car...that I

was riding with my friends in stead of in my car....and no way on

earth I can convince her else wise.

That thing about riding with friends, she has all these sorts of

strange rules, I can sit with them anywhere, BUT I'm not allowed to

ride in her car, or let her ride my car, actually I'm not allowed to

ride the same car with any girl, no matter what the situation is. Nice

rule huh....totally pointless, of course by friends she means work

mates.

Today she fought with me over these pictures of mine that I showed

her, I was sitting on a bed in yasmine's house, leaning against the

headboard with her sitting beside me both obviously working, and its

not like any of us had anything but a totally serious expression on.

Anyway she made a huge deal out of it, personally I'm sure I did this

huge mistake showing her these pictures like these but I think its my

subconscious at work, i don't know why but I'm sure I've done it for

some reason. Point is she saw these pics and she had a huge fight with

me, yasmine is in a really serious relationship by the way.

I love her and I can't stand it when she fights with me, it devastates

me from the inside, so I try to fix the situation, and as I try to fix

it more and more she becomes more and more stubborn, and so I get

frustrated and try harder eventually doing things that are worse than

the mistake we were fighting about first place.

She doesn't like anything about me and she wants me to change, she on

the other hand doesn't believe she is ever wrong, and so she doesn't

have to change, in a relationship any relation ship, both parties need

to change just a bit in order for them to be totally compatible, but

with her, she wants me to change becoming someone else perhaps just to