to my girlfriend

to my girlfriend

Well, you called me and then put me this message, saying that you

missed me!

You made me realise, that I was so glad that I had you in my life.

Us ,in our mid twenties, or much before that; we start thinking about

companionship,love,settling,intellectual stimulation,career, balance,

god,meaning,society,conventions,marriage... it goes on!

But, dont think anyone else can take your space - you, my girlfriend.

I probably always took you for granted. You were too much a part of my

life.

how do you always try to understand?

and how long can you listen to all the crap that i have to say, and

feed me with more crap from your life, that i dont feel stupid about

mine.

Oh with you, i dont have to think about what I am feeling about you; i

can just feel. I wonders why i have to analyse every other relation.

Oh I love it, when I can walk through Westside and spend my time there

alone,trying things out and with you there at the other end, doing

your own bit. Atleast we know that we dont have to be worried of

boring each other; we love Westside!

How do you ask me those straight questions? You make it so difficult

for me to lie. Remember I could not stop laughing! Oh lady, you care!

and so much!

I cant believe I made you cry sometime, saying that i was suffocated

at your concern. I still have your letter,and I'm glad, that we did

not do what we agreed to.

How can you be so non-judgemental? how can you always speak as if my

feelings are the only natural thing in this world? And how can you

react in the same way every single time, even

when both of us know that i have made a somersault like i did last

time?

And because of you, I learnt to go to the parlour, I learnt to thread

my eyebrows, wax my skin and feel beautiful. Its fun getting dressed,

isn't it? And thanks for those earings, they are beautiful. why do you

care, by the way?

He asked me if we dont share jokes.hmm, i dont remember us cracking

jokes, or do we? but i do remember us laughing at our own queerness

and incapabilities ;i am glad you were as vulnerable as I was ; lady,

but good that we took turns :)

and you roomie, were you really ok with me not telling you anything?

and ya, good that i am straight, i dont have to constantly doubt,

define and justify my feelings when I am with you:) and more

importantly i am free from my insecurities too.

And thanks for that break from morality and feminity.

we understand this, dont we?

"You'll meet someone. Someone very special. Someone who won't press

charges"